If only you just knew...

The summer classes is about to end, but this heart of mine is not stopping from falling in love of a guy who in the first moment that I saw him, there is this kind of unexplained feeling that I overwhelmingly feel for him. And that if he just only knew...

I thought that I could not fall in love again after a heartbreak for almost 2 years now. He is actually a classmate in one of the subject that I took up this summer.

It is a kind of weird feeling that from the very first time that I saw him, my heart never stops beating "in-love" with him. He is just so humorous and extraordinary from the rest. It comes from the very fact that there is a sort of similarity that he has with my ex-boyfriend. That is why, everytime I look at him, his actions and ways reminds me of my past "love".

I feel so excited to go to school especially when it is Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. That days are our class' meet.

It is unplanned but we are of the same group. There was once a group activity that we had and all of us take charge of doing something for the accomplishment of our assigned task. He is the anchor man and I am the field reporter. But I make the script of our newscast presentation.

There was a moment when he requested me to comment on his performance before the final presentation, that moment when we were having our practice, only the two of us. But I just kept myself silent and mutual as if there is nothing so pounding in my heart that fastly beats. There, I come to have a crush on him more.

We both have the chance of communication which we don't do it usually in the classroom. But I know that I should not expect more because I know that he has already a girlfriend. That constant texting probably mean that his girlfriend keeps on texting him in the class.

I never took tight feeling of love because I know that if I let myself feel totally in-love with him (though it is just secret), I know that I will be hurt because this feeling I have felt is really "love", I guess.

I hope that we can see each other again in the huge campus. I hope that we can be classmates again. If he just only knew how much I like him. But I guess this is just a time of my life that will just pass by.

I was feeling sad that our class for the Health Education just end this afternoon. I don't know if I can see him again in the open-wide campus. I just hope that he is okay and well.