Tears

(Picture taken from http://babyboomertalkonline.com/2011/the-meaning-of-good-fridayvideo/)

Just this afternoon as we had our class in Related Learning Experience (R.L.E) 20 subject, our teacher showed us a video entitled "How Beautiful". I thought the video she will show us is about a refreshing exercise that will show us steps of a dance for us to follow. We were all standing and when she said to make the "Sign of the Cross", then that moment I knew that the video was intended for the prayer as we are about to begin our class.

As I hear the song playing on that video, my eyes started to gather tears. I saw Christ who offer Himself to save us from our sins. I have felt His pain on the cross. I can feel the blood drifting all over His body. I can feel His eyes almost shutting. I can feel the pain of His Mother, Mary, who witnessed her Son on the cross. I can feel the excruciating pain He suffered in the hands of the scrupulous people who strikes Him physically with strong hands and undefinable weapons that inflict unexplainable pain.

As I deeply internalized the whole thing, I was reminded of giving time for Christ. I was reminded to pause for some times out from my busy schedules in order to spend more time with Jesus Christ. I was reminded to repentance and do penance. I was feeling sorry that I was so numbed of not being able to share more time with Him.

The video with that song bring me back to remind me always that Jesus is just patiently waiting for me to call on Him. Even though, I pray at day and night, still, I feel the missing link of talking to Christ through praying in a longer time.

I cried. I was not able to shun myself from crying in secret. My heart cried in much conscience because I was so busy with the outside world that I was not able to give more time for Him. I was quite regretful for myself for being so selfish enough.

The video reminds me of Christ. I have realized that I need and I have to spend time with Him. It is not appropriate to think of Christ only in times of great need.