11 If you fear the Lord, honor and pride will be yours, you will be crowned with happiness and joy.
12 To honor the Lord is a heartfelt delight; it will give you a long and happy life,
13 and at the end of your days all will go well for you. God will bless you on the day of your death.
This great message from God touches me at all times. His great promise simply delivers true happiness that if we totally submit ourselves to Him.
I have been struggling right now about the word, "love". It is because I struggle still this time. ALong the way of my coping, I never felt to really ask from God and pray. I was totality swimming at my own thinking that I will be fine, that I will get over it.
Because of the deep ending of a happy relationship (supposedly for me), I never thought that those smiles, togetherness and love will soon be kept into a proposal, but it was not. I was just like daydreaming. Our separation went extremely hurtful especially on my part.
Before, I never feel to get closer to God because I was totally happy with my boyfriend (now my ex). All I cherish and love to do went not caring and minding about the world but simply me and him only and nothing else. I felt the ultimate happiness ever before as I am with him. But all drastically change. We ended up not us but I was all alone, lonely, hurt, crying and in pain.
At this point, the transition of my lfie went on as I come to open up the Bible and read about God's words. Now, I feel the happiness of learning new things from the Bible and gaining myself back again, piece by piece, little by little until I can fully say that I am totally healed.
To love God is more than my life. It is everlasting. It speaks the inner me and what is really life. I never same into a point to have felt loss. I even was not expecting of it because I thought what we have is forever. I thought I will be forever happy. But as life transcend, there is the turning point in me to feel lose and gaining myself again.
I felt lots of pains and even countless ones, but never do I surrender to struggle to survive. Life must go on.
